The Last Day...

...of being in my twenties.  


I have struggled with turning 30 since the day I turned 29.  When you're 30, you're REALLY an adult - and, I don't know that I'm all that ready to be a REAL adult.  I've kind of enjoyed being in my twenties, and trying to figure out who and what I want to be when I grow up.

As you know, I have a 30 by 30 list that I started almost a year and a half ago, and well, it's ummmm, not complete...and, that drives me crazy.  I am a goal driven, checking things off the list kind-a girl and when there's things left un-checked on the list, I don't get the satisfying feeling of accomplishment.  *Sigh*

And, to be just really honest, I don't like the idea of growing old.  There I said it.  I don't want wrinkles, and gray hair (which I have ALOT of already that's hidden thanks to my wonderful "hair-apist"!), and to be looked at as being "old".  I've always been the youngest - I was the youngest child in my family, the youngest in my class at school, the youngest at every place I've ever worked, etc.  BOO to getting older!!

BUT, as my daddy has reminded me - getting older is better than the alternative!...

So, I've tried to enjoy my last day as a twenty-something, although I've said "this will be my last time to do ____________ in my twenties!"  Today has been a good day, doing things that I love:

1.  Spending the morning worshipping Jesus with my church family!
2.  Having lunch with some of my all-time favorite people in the world - my former youth pastor and his wife.  Although we stay in touch through phone calls and Facebook, we only get to see each other once every couple of years, and I savor every moment.  They played a TREMENDOUS role in my life as a high school and college student, and they are treasures to me.  What a sweet blessing to spend time with them my last day in my twenties!!!
3.  Having this sweet girl to love on me - no matter how old I am!! ;)

4.  Spending the afternoon with Brad and my parents laughing and talking and eating yummy food!!
5.  Being at my all time favorite place in all the world - the lake!!!
6.  These shoes - I mean really, who can be unhappy when wearing these cute little zebra print numbers??!!

Twenties, you have been some more of a roller-coaster decade for me!  In the past 10 years, I have gotten engaged, married, graduated from college, became an aunt (4 times over!), started my Master's, started my career, changed jobs (5 times...), struggled with the pain of lost pregnancies and infertility, learned a lot about who I am and who God is, learned to love Brad more every day, blessed with friendships and dear sisters in Christ, got our first "baby" - Miss Ellie Jane!, and so much more.  

I'm closing the door of 10 years that have molded me and shaped me into who I am today...

30, here I come - you better watch out!!!!